Cold World

January 3rd, 2011, 3 days before his twelfth birthday was the day he was forced to face reality. An event so powerful it turned a warm heart cold, an event that turned blood in his veins to ice, so powerful it leaves unseen scars on the people he loves, including himself. Wounds to deep to ever mend. Four years with a broken heart, shapes a young kid with big dreams to a responsible man with an even bigger vision.

Picture a perfect family a mom, dad, two brothers, and the best grandparents anyone could ever ask for. A big house filled with all the things you love. Health, wealth, and happiness Friends that would kill for you. You can feel the love in your bones, you can feel the happiness float through your bloodstream like a raft down rapids. The taste you have so sweet, but turns so bitter, so quick.

January 6th, 2011, funeral day.                      l wake up to a frosted over yard. My eyes crusty, dried, and bloodshot. Mother walks into my room with a forced smile, hands over a little surprise and speaks. “Happy Birthday son, I Love you more than the world. People come, people go, but I’m here, always”, as she gives me a suit and tie for dad’s funeral.

I’ve always been told growing old takes time. For me, things were different. When you are forced to play an adult role at twelve years old, you see the world in a different light. Holding the weight of the world on your shoulders toughens you up, but as years go on the weight becomes too much to bare and it will begin to break you down.

I Believe everything happens for a reason. Going on without someone I love may be hardest challenge I’ve encountered. I’ve accepted this challenge, and im ready to kick it’s ass.


2 thoughts on “

  1. I don’t know what the future will hold for you, but I hope that whatever has happened in your life up until this point will help you to shrug off the future chaos and randomness that life can so cruelly dump upon us without any prior warning…

    Best of luck for the future ass-kicking of what life has in store for you! (^_^)

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  2. Your words are crafted with such emotion and authenticity. Keep it up bro, you’ve got a real talent in writing. It’s obvious that it’s all from the heart.

    Stay strong! Life is tougher on some people than others and it’s totally not fair. It’s all about finding ways to channel that anger and sadness into something creative that you enjoy. I’m really impressed by the way you keep going, when most other people would have given up. It’s inspiring.


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